Life can get pretty crazy sometimes. You never know when you wake up in the morning what the day ahead of you will bring. All you can really do is hope for the best each day, and take every possible step throughout the day to make things as positive as possible. It may work out, or it may not. But, every day is a new opportunity for things to go right.
Tonight, for whatever reason, a lot of things started running through my head. My life right now is probably the busiest it’s ever been. I rarely get a chance to just stop and look back on things like I used to do on a regular basis. I wake up early in the morning nowadays and I am constantly on the go until my body completely shuts down and I pass out. I have been saying for months that I need 48 hours in a day just to get in everything I need to do and everything I want to do.
It’s amazing how much can change in a fairly short amount of time. At the beginning of 2018, I felt like my life, as I knew it, was done. I had exhausted all of my options, had failed, and had started believing that I needed to move back to my hometown to face reality. I was frustrated and felt hopeless. I decided that I would just accept what life had in store for me and would make the most of it. Whatever happened, I’d force myself to be happy.
As is usually the case in life, things started falling into place for me at the time I had completely given up. I began a new job that ended up being exactly what I had been hoping for years to find. I began to see little glimpses of what the future might hold if I kept pushing through and didn’t let the tough times get to me. Shortly after that, I met a new friend who changed my whole life.
It’s a really shitty feeling when most of the people you’ve relied on for support and encouragement throughout your life start asking you on a daily basis when you’re going to face reality and give up on your “crazy” dreams. Even when things start to look like they might be taking a positive turn in your life, having people close to you telling you that you’re wasting your time and wasting your life starts to take its toll physically, mentally, and emotionally. You start to believe it when you hear it enough times.
Everything in life happens for a reason. It happens if and when it’s supposed to happen, I really do believe that. At the point when I started to believe the negativity that was surrounding me on a daily basis, life handed me a gift in the form of someone who makes me believe I can do anything in the world if I’m willing to go after it and make it happen.
The past year of my life has been all about busting out of my shell and breaking through the boundaries of my former comfort zone. I’m not the same person I was a year ago, and it is the best thing that has ever happened to me. My life would have been stuck at a dead end if I had continued on the path I was on a year ago.
On almost a daily basis, I am around other people who do the exact same things I used to do that stressed me out and made me believe my only option was to give up. Life throws you curveballs sometimes and there are things that are out of your control, but most of the problems we face in life are created within ourselves. We make things more difficult and more complicated than they really are.
I could think back and come up with a fairly lengthy list of the things that have gone wrong in my life over the past year, but, honestly, the positives I’ve experienced have far outnumbered the negatives. I’ve found freedom living outside of my comfort zone. I’ve learned to completely eliminate doubters from my life. I have the greatest support ever in my life constantly inspiring me to become the best version of myself that I can possibly be. I’m starting to trust myself and realize that I am fully capable of doing the things I doubted a year ago.
A large portion of this past year has been a mess, but I have learned lessons along the way and have gained a level of confidence in myself that I had never previously believed was possible for me.
Life will very rarely go as planned, but it always works out the way it’s supposed to work out in the end. Learn from your mistakes and from the hard times you face. Enjoy and learn from your successes. Celebrate the victories you achieve along the path of your journey. Let your supporters know how much you appreciate them and how much they have done for you. Life can be a chaotic mess sometimes, but buckle up, hang on, and enjoy the ride!!